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On page 159 of my biology textbook, it reads,
“...cancer is the uncontrolled growth of cells”
as though that could explain everything,
and I thought it did for a time.
But my textbook never warned me
that his skin would pale
to a point where I could see
the blue freight trains
carrying eighteen pills
throughout his frail body.
My textbook never warned me
that his watery irises would freeze over,
that he would hurl insults like knives,
and that he would clench his jaw
as tightly as his fist clenched his wine glass
because the only person to blame is himself,
and he can’t swallow that as easily
as he can the olives in his martinis.
And my textbook never warned me
that it would be this difficult to breathe
because of my acute awareness
that his breaths are limited,
and that there would be nothing I could do
but soldier on searching for that silver lining
clinging to these foreboding thunderheads.
“...cancer is the uncontrolled growth of cells”
as though that could explain everything,
and I thought it did for a time.
But my textbook never warned me
that his skin would pale
to a point where I could see
the blue freight trains
carrying eighteen pills
throughout his frail body.
My textbook never warned me
that his watery irises would freeze over,
that he would hurl insults like knives,
and that he would clench his jaw
as tightly as his fist clenched his wine glass
because the only person to blame is himself,
and he can’t swallow that as easily
as he can the olives in his martinis.
And my textbook never warned me
that it would be this difficult to breathe
because of my acute awareness
that his breaths are limited,
and that there would be nothing I could do
but soldier on searching for that silver lining
clinging to these foreboding thunderheads.
Literature
the world doesn't need beauty sleep
mother earth is pregnant;
her curves yawn -
molasses stretches of dark,
dank night freckled with
streetlights sparkling.
i yearn to rest in the cradle
that the small of her back
has become.
the roads untangle like
veins unto her skin
after being held so long
in the fist of pre-dawn.
drunk in slumber, red-eyed,
beautiful - morning will
come yet, the small child
born in the rafters of
catastrophe, aching;
but before her date,
mother earth shifts in her sleep,
love settling in the wing
of her hip -
exhaustion dilutes her blood,
consciousness touches her golden
shoulder on his way out the door.
Literature
breathing is easy but I'm terrible at it
april suns always left streaks of
yellow on your driveway
before they sank.
you laughed at how
the flowers coughed on me
along the bilirubin pavements
on the way to your house
I confused all the streetlights
for sunsets and drowned in
halogen tidepools in those evenings
when the sidewalks ended but
my thoughts of you wouldn’t
maybe love is the sum
of all the excuses we make for it,
or I’m just too tired
to pull myself to the surface
you roll the blades of grass
through your grips, dusting
your fingerprints with haptens
and what-ifs.
I’d like to blame you for every
wheeze and rale but goddamnit
I just can’t
Literature
Dysphoria
she sells 9mm shells by the seashore,
says she can hear the ocean.
but if you listen close to these shells
you can hear ghosts.
something borrowed, something blue,
something broken, something bruised.
she traces her fingers across the autopsy scars
while she counts her bones like currency.
she'll leave your skin screaming,
and sink into the whites of your eyes like a shipwreck.
can you hear the ocean?
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AT LAST THIS BEAST IS CONQUERED!
Just sent the e-mail to enter this in a contest for a $300 scholarship! The prompt was: "Descriptive Poem/Journal entry 500 word limit expressing challenges faced such as internal struggle, loss, strife, grief. After exactly eight drafts, I have made it as perfect as it can be. Of course, with the help of English teachers and some friends of mine who edited it and gave me some feedback. I would still love some feedback on this because I can always get better!
(And for those concerned, my grandfather is not dead, and he is slowly recovering from a liver transplant. This is merely a reflection on the emotions and the pain my family and I were going through. We are all okay!)
Word Count: 165
Daily Literature Deviation for December 22, 2013! Thank you!
Daily Literature Deviation for December 22, 2013! Thank you!
Changed the last lines based on some feedback I've been getting!
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I love the feeling of the piece, and the emotions that the words carry.
My sister recently finish a round of therapy for cancer, and so I know the feelings of fear, even when you're sure (as sure as you can be,) that they're okay.
Just a small problem, and it's a personal taste. I wish this had a better flow to it. (I like poems flow-ier. But I can see how choppiness adds to the raw feelings of it all.
I must ask though, did you he get a liver transplant because of cancer? (Just wondering, as it kind of confuses me.)
I'm rating the originality lower because cancer seems to be a relatively popular subject lately. (People have told me I'm quite lenient with ratings. I see no reason to be harsh.)
Tl:dr this is a brilliant piece! I find it hardest to write things that are nonfiction and close to me.
MBW